Overthinking

Where do I even start with overthinking I’m actually over thinking about why I am writing about over thinking now if you know what I mean ( you most likely don’t ). Everytime something good happens in my life’s like a new relationship for example I over think ever inch of it and normally end up wrecking the whole thing all togever, I think it comes down to deep past relationships and abuse. How my heart is even still in my chest I do not know the amount of heartache and hurt, pain ect I have been through and here I am getting putting my heart on the sleeve. A part me is like hey girl stop been so dumb his only going to hurt you ect then the other part is like maybe you just need to think positive and hope for the best. Surely it must get to a point where I get the happiness I deserve and if not i have just got to look at it like this I have been through bigger and worst I can get through anything!!!!

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Is a elephant sitting on my head

Ok well that sounds so silly because I am pretty sure if a elephant was sitting on my head I would be dead ha, but it’s kinda how I feel like so much weight is on top of me. Once everything gets on top of you it’s hard to move and be happy, basically it’s like trying to get a dead weight of you. Many people deal with lifes stresses in many different ways I tend to burry my head in the stand with near a nuff everything, so it comes to the point where I have to ask my self what can I do to help myself because although I have people around no one can actually help me but myself. I started this blog today and I already feel better so that’s a start I guess, I think I am going to write a list of all the bad things in my life at the moment and all the good. It’s never as easy as that but worth a go I guess, some times I sit here thinking why did god make us to make us go through so much pain ? Goooood can you answer me ? Guess not but yeah.. I am going to look in my mirror look my self in the face and say “ listen girl your a strong independent female you’ve got this “ even tho I haven’t but it’s worth a try Happy Tuesday ❤️

Inside my messy head

Hey guys, girls females and gents welcome inside my messy head. Some may think what’s the meaning behide that well basically my head is a mess ( just throwing it out there ) for a number of reasons, but I am hoping that starting this blog could help me over come a lot of things in my life such as depression and few other things but I am sure I will explain that in more detail some point on my blog. So I woke up this morning thinking I don’t want to feel this way any more I love writing ect so why not start a blog where it may lead who knows but if you believe in your self the possibilities   are endless. ( thanks for taking the time to visit my blog i am Dyslexia so please take no notice if I have made any spelling mistakes and if I haven’t google never helped promise ha )